"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalm 27:1
This past weekend was very emotional, painful and all of the above. It was as if God took a knife into my very most being and was cutting away at this area in my life called; FEAR. Your probably thinking; "Fear? Sarah having fear in her life? Whatever". Yeah fear. Fear of the past, the present, the future. Everything in between. And because of that fear I couldn't trust, I couldn't believe in others, or myself really. Because the fear was so dominant in my life I thought I had to be in control of everything, so I couldn't trust God fully.
I was afraid of messing up and making someone upset. I was afraid to get to close to a lot of people because I was afraid I would hurt them or influence them wrong. But yet in the process I actually ended up hurting them anyway.
Today though I can say that God is definitely setting me free from it. I have to remind myself at times that I am not in control of my life God is and I am totally seeing a difference in the way that I view life. I know it will take time but I also know that God is faithful and he wont give up on me. I am totally under construction. Pray for me though I have so far to go but I also serve a very big and powerful God!
"When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek." Psalm 27:8